crazyobsessions

that people believe and spread rumors like the person its about doesnt have feelings or a voice.

i love hearing about things ‘i did’

do me a favor and ask me if its true before you believe it and spread it? is it that hard for you?

did our lips mold together like that? oh so perfectly it would happend. ♥

i miss the times we spent together, the times i wanted to last forever.

i miss the kisses i would get from head to toe, the kisses that lasted forever.

i miss the random cute texts from you, the texts i wanted to lock.

i miss your family, the way the i felt a part of it.

i miss the hugs where you would hold me in your arms so tight, the way we would lay together and our bodies would mold perfectly together.

i miss the laughs we shared, the inside jokes we loved.

i miss calling you mine, you calling me yours.

i miss you saying ‘ill love you forever’, me saying ‘and ever’.

but do i miss the tears you made me shed? the friends you made me lose? the lies you made me say? the chances i shouldnt have taken?

i know you will never read this but i just have to get it out.

You were one of my best friends. i know some people dont believe boys and girls can just be friends without feeling anything, but we made it happen. i honestly miss you alot and i dont know where you went. i would go to your house all the time and we would spend time together outside, hanging with trev and spenc, watching movies, playing xbox, going to your neighbors(they were so nice). i didnt care what we did cause i was with one of my bestfriends. i dont know if you felt like we were, but i did. and now that i lost that, i feel like i lost something big. its been on my mind for a while and i just cant take it. i dont know how we can pass each other in the hall and not even say hi. its rediculous. i know we will never be what we were because you dont want to be.. and im not quite sure why. i know i annoy you, but i dont know why we cant even be friends. i miss getting your advice and you asking me for mine about girls, it was so funny, but i was awful at giving advice on that:/ i miss how you bmx and how cool i thought it was, and how i always wanted to go to your next race, but never did. i miss my bestfriend. but whatever. i guess it doesnt matter now. <3

i drink to forget the truth.

i cry to blur the images.

i smile to hide truth from the world.

i think i need help.

is it good or bad to want to cry yourself to sleep every night?

im being pushed from you. i brought you together, and youre tearing me apart. i know you say were all bestfriends, but were not. you guys are. i was bestfriends with both of you, and now im not. when i made you both sleepover you ere both nervous and didnt like each other. and now i feel like you dont like me. it doesnt seem fair. but why, is it cause were not meant to be bestfriends? i dont know anymore. you tell each oher everything and im told nothing now. i want you both back but i know ill never get what i wish for. nothing. ill miss you both. <3

Tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now?

Their honesty and presence

What on your body is hurting or bothering you?

My new braces

What was your last thought before going to bed last night?

I hate braces, oor i hate reading before bed

What are you listening to?

My home girl Tay Swift you- belong with me

What’s something you’re not looking forward to?

Regents in a few weeks

Where do you think your best friend is right now?

Bedd

Have you kissed anybody in the last 5 days?

Yes

Sex on the first date?
Nope

Kiss on the first date?

As long as it feels right

Is there one person you want to be with right now?

Very much so

Are you seriously happy with where you are in life?

Not at all

Is there something you would like to say to someone?

Yes

What are three things you did today?

Got ready, went to school, came home, went out to red robin with people, then here

Would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over?
Sleep at a friend’s

What is your favorite kind of gum?

Spearminttt

Are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends?

Yes

What is on your wrists right now?

Silly Bands, my Pandora, 2 other braclets and a hair-tie

Do you hate when people call you when you’re sleeping?

Wouldnt know the difference, its on silent

Ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with?
Yes, sadly

Who’s the biggest slut you know?

Does it matter? me.

Does anyone have strong feelings for you?

Yes, i think.

Are you slowly drifting away from someone?

Yes.

Have you ever wasted your time on someone?

Yes.

Can you do the alphabet in sign language?

Nope!

How long have you had MySpace?

Since this year, but i dont go on

How have you felt today?

Dissapointed, confused

You receive $60 without any reason, what do you spend it on?

Anything. getting my nails redone? tanning?

What is wrong with you right now?

Everything.

Is there anyone you’re really disappointed in?

Yes. myself.

Would you rather have Starbucks or Jamba Juice right now?

Whats Jamba Juice?

Why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore?

He left me.

How late did you stay up last night and why?

11, people kept calling me.

When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?

Like 10 minutes ago

What were you doing an hour ago?

Eating

What are you looking forward to in the next month?

Everything that comes my way

Are you anything like you were at this point last year?

You tell me.

Are you wearing jeans right now?

Nope, pjs!

Are you a patient person?

Not suree

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?

Yess!

Favorite color?

Pink<3

Are you missing someone?

Very much

Did you have a dream last night?

Not that i can remember

Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
Shorts

If someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be?

Its a secret;)

Do you love anyone who is not related to you?
Course i doo!

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?

Yes.

Do you like meeting new people?

Love itt

Are you afraid of falling in love?

Nope

Ever liked someone older than you?

Yeah!

Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?

Yes, but im not sure why.

Have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough?

To often.

i havent written in a while. and i was thinking about why and realized it was because i have nothing to say. my parents give me no voice, no room to speak. when i tell them or anyone how i feel i get shot down. so im scared. im scared to write my true feelings on here for people that have nothing else to do with their life, will laugh at me. like usual. so what am i supposed to say now..? do i stop pretending like im okay and tell the truth?

i feel dizzy. i dont feel myself. am i depressed?

“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s going to be really hard; we’re gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me… everyday.”

when i see this quote i just want to be in this position. i want someone that i have to work for being with. i dont want it handed to me, sure that would be easy. but love is never easy cause i dont know about you, but im not perfect. so were not always gonna get along. i just want to be with you. i just want to be yours, and smile after you kiss me again. <3

i hate pretty people.

i hate being told what to do.

i hate being told what i said and did.

i hate crying.

i hate being a ghost.

i hate eating.

i hate food.

i hate skinny people.

i hate being flat.

i hate wearing clothes.

i hate rich people.

i hate when i have no voice in the matter.

i hate being fat.

i hate having the chills.

i hate my teeth.

i hate being called pretty.

i hate texting.

i hate shopping.

i hate getting ready in the morning.

i hate being alone.

i hate being called a whore.

i hate the doctors and dentist.

i hate pictures of me.

i hate not listening to the radio.

i hate always fighting with my family.

i hate school.

i hate myself.

i hate when people make fun of me while im right there.

i hate being jealous but i always am.

i hate fighting with people.

i hate when people cant make up there mind.

i hate choosing between things though.^

i hate writing.

i hate catipillars.

i hate not wearing jewelery.

i hate not smiling.

i hate having to act happy when im not.

i hate makeup.

i hate being hopeless.

i hate not wearing make up though. ^

i hate sugar cookies.

i hate when my nails arent painted.

i hate my house.

i hate very few people.

i hate.

i hate..

i hate…too much.

You never knew
Deep down inside
you where the one who made her cry.
She never would show
But you where the one who made her die
Just because she comes off strong,
Didn’t mean she didnt fall asleep crying.
Even though she acts like everythings alright,
Maybe just maybe she’s good at lying.
Now what will you do
with the chance that you blew.

im not myself anymore. i dont know what to do. ive lost so many people and im not sure why. i dont know what i did to them or how to get them back. but i cant take it anymore. i wouldnt be suprised if i stopped seeing my own smile. </3

to go on tumblr, i end up liking virtually every post i see.. damn.

i have a problem:p